I used to think Science is "magical" in a wonderful like sense. I still think it is.
But, recently, I got to know learn about how the lives of ancient scientists were. The concepts and facts I learn in textbook, took so many years/decades of efforts and rigor to acquire(and so much misunderstandings), and it's still not complete. I always knew it was rigorous. But, the more I understood how quirky and troubled/misunderstood the scientists were (eg. Newton), the more I realize how man-made everything really is.
The news about Epstein files and the way the world works in general, it feels like so many things are man-made, a countable no. of people control the system of the world. The constructs we learn in our studies, aren't entirely "natural" too, and still need so much proving to do.
However, I don't want to be nihilistic, I accidentally become like that. Even though, there are many man-made constructs, there's still beauty in this universe. I hope I have an objective and positive stance about life and the reality as I go.
But really though, what is the right way to study science? Is it all about how wonderful the universe is, or is it about the grey-region of how science is both utilized for discoveries and used in technology and application?